Adoption, has touched us like nothing has touched us before. I wish everyone could experience what we have experienced in this process. I met my husband 21 years ago... that was an amazing experience. I have given birth to four children... I loved being pregnant. I loved giving birth. I loved every moment being a mother. Words cannot express the love a mother has for her children. A mother once told her daughter, "you will never understand how much I love you, until you have a child of your own." How true this is. It is a love only a mother can understand.
And then there is adoption. It is hard. Very hard. Very challenging. No one can understand the time is takes to apply to adopt. No one can understand the emotional rollercoaster that adoption can bring upon a person. I loved my daughter the minute I saw her picture. God made it very clear that she was the one. God made it very clear, right from the beginning, that it was time for us to adopt. God led us to China. God led us to a daughter.
Then we held her in our arms. And it was hard. It was emotional. My husband and I fought. My daughter rejected me.
But here we are at one year with Lilah. I cannot tell you how much this child, how much this experience has blessed us. What a blessing she is to our family! We have grown through this experience in ways we can't even imagine. We have seen our children love this child in a way that is unexplainable in words. My husband and I have found an even deeper love and respect for each other than we ever imagined. And that love has extended to our children and this large family that we have created. We have found a love for a country that is half way around the world. It has forever touched our lives. Our daughter is from there. Her biological family is from there. She has a mother there who thinks about her and wonders about her. But she also has me. I am blessed to call her mine. I am blessed to call her my daughter.
I know that everybody has to make their own choice when it comes to adoption. A "special needs" child or a "healthy" child. All I can say is.... THEY ARE ALL CHILDREN. When it comes down to it, they are just little people. My daughter is so smart. She is full of personality and she is stronger than anyone I know. She has been through so much, I can't even understand... all I know is that she has changed our lives. And through the grace of God, she is all ours.
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